Idea: 7/11/09 (see below sketchbook entry), titled: 7/12/09
Sears portrait : 9/27/09
Answers to questions I received on my blog:
Who does this speak to?
This piece directly relates to my hormones and menstrual
cycle. I only seem to blush or feel an excess of nervousness,
etc. when in the midst of my cycle. Beyond that aspect of
it, I’d like to think that it would speak to anyone
who has ever been embarrassed. The idea for puddle was actually
from sweat dripping down my leg during an art opening, I
was afraid I was creating a puddle. Due to the fact that
sweat doesn’t show up in photo’s I changed it
to a puddle that implies urine. Think of the small dog who
is so excited to see you, it piddles on the floor.
That small dog excitement leads us to the subtitle; I’m
so excited! It’s about being single and experiencing
crushes. blush~n~puddle is a perfect title for my reaction
to seeing a boy I may have a crush on. Whether or not I
actually blush or sweat to death in the presence of someone
I’m attracted to is besides the point, it captures
the excitement of the experience for me.
What’s the point being made?
The point is that bodily functions are uncontrollable and
I wanted to explore that within my own experience. It’s
actually one of three self portraits that I have been working
on dealing with things that make me self conscious. This
one has felt the strongest to me and therefore I have developed
it further by taking it into the studio.
Is it about fear?
Yes. Despite the performative aspect of my work, I am painfully
shy in my day to day interactions.
Is it exhibitionism?
A hint, when I’m living the art, the shyness fades.
It might just be a cry for attention…?
All art is crying for attention. I’ve attempted to
create an image that portrays an internal struggle gone
terribly wrong. The calm, cool and collected exterior has
been shattered, uncontrollably, by whatever scenario you
would like to insert into her story.
Thank you!
Sketchbook entry:
